A volcano eruption.

Today, I finally agree that women are made of water as the Chinese says. My tears didn't stop flowing for almost an hour. Why? Because I just have a big fight (using my mouth) with my mum. I still don't understand why I'll start to cry whenever I begin to quarrel with someone. I just can't stop it from coming down.

The whole thing started off when I don't want to eat the cod fish my mum cooked after she said that I always need to be told then only I'll do things. Yea, I know I'm wrong over that. But what's the big deal? My sister done it before what. She left the table after finishing her rice. Why I'm the one scolded and caned? Why I'm threatened not to have any meal in the house anymore if I don't eat the cod fish? Why she can just walk away without any scolding?

So, me and my mum sat down in the living room and started the volcano eruption. I pointed out that my sis did it before and didn't get any punishment. Why I'm the one getting all of it? My mother tell me not to compare my sister with me. But this is the fact! It really did happen.

Then I talk about my mum telling other mothers at school yesterday about how the school band was always not in time. I don't know what got into me, but when I heard it, I was so mad. I don't like people talking bad things about the band. I know they are always like that but I don't think you need to tell all the others about it!

And then, I remember the incident on the repost card day. I told her that I'm embarrassed when my teacher ask me in the class the next day. And she say she want to go to school to find the teacher once more. OMG (feel like banging my head on the wall), don't she know how embarrassed I am already? I can't stand her anymore...... She says she feel like killing me every time I fight with her. Well, actually I think if she kill me it's better for the two of us. At lease we won't need to quarrel anymore. It will be peace for the two of us for every.

P/s: Those reading this mail please don't tell my mum or my father about it. It's just merely me feeling after the fight. No big deal. I'll not try to kill myself. I just want to release my anger so that my tears will not come down again.